Goodbyes.

I decided to write a post today. I haven't written in so long. It's about time.

The play is in five days. FIVE. DAYS. How incredible is that? It seems like rehearsals started just yesterday... literally. It doesn't feel like two months. It feels like two weeks... or two days.

I am going to bawl when this is over. Or maybe, the realization won't hit. So many things are ending right in front of me, before I have time to breathe.

The play is ending. The wonderful, joyful memories and silly inside jokes and having time to shine... it's all going to end.

The school year. This is the worst thing I think I'm ever going to have to deal with. It'll be like 7th grade all over again. That year, my two best friends left my class to go to seperate schools. I cried all day that last day of school... it was like this impenitrable doom that was enveloping us that couldn't be stopped. And so we just cried and cried.

That's how it's going to be this year. Maybe even worse. My friendships have grown even further and deeper. And now, it's happening all over again. I'm losing two best friends, again. History is repeating itself... creepy.

Kayleen Kelly is my best friend. I'm going to miss her so much. I don't want to have to say goodbye to her. She has been my best friend since 4th grade... Five whole years. What will I do without her?

Lindsay Anne Dransfield. Oh, how I'll miss her. She's going to college... I'm going to be a sophomore. That's what makes our friendship awesome :).

Why do people have to say goodbye? Why did I have to say goodbye to Caitlin, another best friend, who I won't see this entire summer? She'll be away, in Slovakia, and Hungary. Farther away than I can imagine.

Why do people have to say goodbye? It sucks.

It kinda reminds me of when the people had to say goobye to Jesus... when He died. I bet it was a billion times harder and sadder than what I have to go through now. My friends aren't dying and going to hell; my friends are just leaving for a while. But they will be back. Just like Jesus came back from the dead :)

Strange analogy, I know. But that's just what I thought of.

I'll miss them so dearly. I don't even know how I'll be able to get through another school year, without them there.

But God has a plan. And I just have to trust Him, no matter what.